tantantanTAN

darkest times, you're my shining light

2008-07-23T00:00:00.000-07:00

I don't you know how much i love you. It's obvious these feeling and love run so deep. A deep sense of longing. If i hurt your feeling, it was not intentional. I don't mean to hurt you. My heart was broke, my head was sore. I always keep it inside. Mami, i just want you to know loving you is like food to my soul.

I don't know what to say, Mami I thank you for all you've done. You gave me everything that i need, and no one else can be what you have been to me. Mami i hope can makes you smile and happy. You were always there and protected me. Gratitude!

Forgive me for not making right, forgive me for the times i hurt you, forgive me for the words unsaid.

I'm sorry, and i LOVE u. You’re the queen of my heart.

fatalism

2008-07-22T00:00:00.000-07:00

今天是天氣好冷。冷冷的夜晚，冷冷房間。媽咪，我又吵架。今天是我們第四个月吵架！而也是沒有理由的！是否是我不夠淒涼媽咪，是我不好吧！我天天都只會弄她傷心、生氣、讓她感到不安。。。我好痛！是不是不應該來或逗留，还是回去吧？还是我正在打撈着她的生活，讓她捨棄自由。。。已經十年沒相處，或許會有點困擾。

我一直在想是不是該回去，但我好不捨得離開她。好矛盾。。。

我的眼淚一滴一滴在流，流的好累！前天，昨天，今天，明天，後天。。。不知道我的眼淚會變成河水嗎？我想應該不會集成海水吧！那會有怎麼多眼淚，太可怕吧？有時还會哭到呼吸困然。每次都要抱着偷偷摸摸的安靜哭。我知道哭是不能解決為題，但可讓我比較舒服。全把它們哭出來，流出來。我好傻！也許有人會覺的我傻、笨、無聊、沒事找事煩。。。

媽咪對不起，女兒我不乖。我只會弄妳傷心、氣妳、失望、等。我也很痛！但我盡力滿足妳，或妳想我回去？也許妳不習慣我突然在妳身邊，畢竟我們十年沒相處。我也不想搞砸妳的生活，我想要妳快快樂樂、開開心心、身體健康的生活。

媽咪，我愛你！

夏天

2008-07-20T00:00:00.000-07:00

今天的天氣好悶悶，好猛的太陽！在這里的第四个月的日子。朋友你們好嗎？我好想念你們喔。我好傻，而且傻的很笨。天天坐在窗邊的我，天天傻傻的過日子。無聊的不知道在想甚麼。模模糊糊的傻！會不會有人會跟我一樣呢？大家應該有不同的煩惱吧！

冰箱里还有一瓶酒，已經放了好幾個星期。其實我是个很不會喝酒，對酒沒那麼重，酒量也不好。好容易被人灌醉。。像一條死魚。。有時喝了好幾杯，醉了也不知道自己在做甚麼。。。我不知道會不會有一天酒會成為我的陪伴。

人是會變。。。變心，變傻，變笨，變壞，變好，變無聊，一分一秒的變。。。。。

我想，我好久沒這麼傷過，或許是從來沒有這麼的傷過！真的好傷，天使都救不回！甚麼都看不
見，看也看不清。。好吧

好吧！今天是我最後的一天傻。。。不要在這樣好嗎？不會有人為你心疼，他也不會！

想太多

2008-07-18T00:00:00.000-07:00

今晚我又喝酒，喝了好幾杯。喝到數不清。好累，真的好累！好想睡覺，好好的睡。我的不安那麼沉重只有你不懂。属于我們的角落都已經不見了。。。有時候真的不知道怎麼做。。就连自己看也看不清。好難好難！我們已不属于對方，属于對方都不存在。感覺也沒了。但你却没有想過補救，只想逃避。不知道，時間，對不起永掛在你口里。真的沒其它嗎？

許多不愉快的是發生。。。謊話真的太多太多。。好恐怖！比看鬼片还要恐怖。我好怕，怕的很！安慰的話也不多！為甚麼你沒心疼我？沒安慰我？。。。你知道嗎？有些不該知道偏偏會知道，該知道偏偏不知道。知道了事實却还要認受你的謊言。但一天比一天的謊話还要多，还要精彩。你只會不知道。

那麼我想只好放棄，放棄吧！只是我唯一能做的。我真的不知道該怎麼辦。我的力量已經用完了，在怎樣充電也不夠。放棄的結果是你想要的，不是嗎？所以，已經不属于你和我的感情。不能怪你！沒有就是沒有，而不能強求。等，一一的在等，機會，一直的在給，聽，一天一天的謊話。痛，一酸酸的疼。淚，一傷傷的悲。我好累真的好累。只好自己对话谈心，說我想是我想太多，不要在強求好嗎？這是我的安慰嗎？

謊話是什么颜色？快乐是什么颜色？寂寞是什么颜色？都是黑色嗎？

不知道天堂是怎樣的？不知道我是怎樣。。

busAD_lol

2008-07-16T00:00:00.000-07:00

5thAVE

2008-07-03T00:00:00.000-07:00

myBOOK_08summer

2008-07-02T00:00:00.000-07:00

blueTEAR

2008-06-29T00:00:00.000-07:00

myBOOK

2008-06-20T00:00:00.000-07:00

brookylnMUSEUM_murakami•08

2008-06-15T00:00:00.000-07:00

foolishME

2008-06-11T00:00:00.000-07:00

sometimes i wish i was smarter. sometimes the fool doesn’t know it fool. i don't believe in love & care, but i believe lie. u know what? i heard so many lies and i don't know what's true or not now. i have been fool. the funny is, the stupid lie not just from friends and also from someone who damn close to you. what's the point. i 'd done been around the world thought I'd seen it aller color, er shape, what I need and all, switch like seasons. it took a minute to come to my senses. Sometimes the wrong don’t know that they’re wrong. i'm so mad this is me, i'm so hurt this is me, i'm so stupid this is me, i'm so fool this is me....... what if.

that’s okay with me, that’s where they made me at. i'm fine. don’t tell me you’re sorry, so sorry! sorry for the stupid things u wish u didn't do, but u do.. SHUT UP.... it’s not an excuse, it’s just how it is. but now it’s time to go. it this what you want? there's nothing you can do, to ever undo what you've done to me. DO? so how do you expect me.. again!

tell me how I'm supposed to breathe. life is such a crazy thing, can you tell me what this means?

yesterdayANDtoday

2008-06-10T00:00:00.000-07:00

mujiLIKEyou

2008-06-03T00:00:00.000-07:00

bookBOX_08

2008-05-20T00:00:00.000-07:00

my life•time•friend•with subway "train"... the bookBOX_2008!
這是我怎樣和時間做朋友，怎樣和時間生活，怎樣和時間鬥爭•打仗。
how to fight with time • how to be friend & live with time. TIME with bookBOX

bernbernTAKEº2

2008-05-16T00:00:00.000-07:00

whitebook_withblackBOX

2008-05-13T00:00:00.001-07:00

黑色給你甚麼的感覺用意？又時候覺得黑色好漂亮。好容易与其他顏色成為朋友！原來我滿又許多黑黑色的東西；如手錶•衣服•褲子•鞋子•手提電腦•盒子•帽子•圍巾•椅子•筆等等。。。連現在的天空也是黑黑黑漆的呵！哈哈哈哈哈哈！我的心情好多了。。原來黑色不是毀或壞顏色。。只是个沒有顏色的顏色！就像閉上眼睛睡覺的時候！微微的晚安。。。晚安的白色的黑書盒。

bernbern

2008-03-25T00:00:00.002-07:00

42street_cool

2008-03-25T00:00:00.001-07:00

侬子。维尼。凡

2008-03-20T00:00:00.000-07:00

虽
然短短的两天，就好想好几年的回忆。能与你们相处，分享快乐和

欢笑就是你们给我的最要好的礼物。谢谢你们给我的力量礼物。让我找
回勇气，坚持，力量的方向。虽然我们在不同的地方，但你们的存在
我的心里。就好像一起生活一样。

谢谢谢谢你们陪半到我最后。陪我走到终点。我会牢牢把你们给我的回忆

收藏在我的心，我的箱子里，我的书，我的秘密地方。不可以偷看。。
谢谢你们给我的回忆和陪伴。。带来给给我的开心，礼物，玩乐，
我死爱你们！哎哟好害羞。:) 哇哈哈哈哈哈哈！但你们知道吗，当你们
送我进去的过后，你们竟然不回头看我一眼。太过分了，太过分了看
招呼哟呼哟。。。
害我一直等待你们的回头。还以为你们会回头看我。
我想太多，是我想太多。但是我一直看到的是背影。难道我不可爱吗？
真不会欣赏。或你们觉的任务已完成，已把这白痴送回去妈妈身边。
好让世界平安。你们的安静。哈哈哈哈哈！但，你们会很想念我这小
维尼哦！真是的！你们是这他坏蛋别以为可以把我甩掉哦，我还会
回的。呼看招！ hahi-hahi

不过真我真的很感动你们为我的一切，毕竟是患难之交。我不会让你们这
么容易把我这白痴小维尼给甩掉。我会好好的计划。厉害吧！知道我的
利还吗？。。太迟太迟太迟哦。你们那边天气热吧应该很热吧。要不要
听冰冷笑话吗？不必客气或不好意识，大家都是朋有啊！来吧来吧朋友
们。。。要不然换你们写冰冷笑话给我读或听。。。好怀念。

猪你生日快乐

2008-03-18T00:00:00.000-07:00

今天是大坏蛋“其中一个不回头看我一眼的臭凡”的生日。这是我和另一个不回头看我一眼的臭侬子在机场帮凡庆祝生日。你知道了啦，叫的大坏蛋通常是没什么多称为朋有，只好有我们这些称为猪侬朋友。。那只好委屈在机场帮他庆祝生日咯。哈哈哈哈哈:/)！情爱的动物园朋友凡，猪你生日快乐，猪你生日快乐，猪你生日快乐，猪你生日快乐。小小意识不要见怪哦哦！希望你梦想成真。顺顺利利，心想事成。要我讲些冰笑话给你听吗？生日快乐！

shoesbyNONGZHI

2008-02-18T00:00:00.000-08:00

http://www.peterarkle.com/

2008-02-03T00:00:00.001-08:00

PETER ARKLE was born 1968 in Whiteheaven, UK and graduated from the St. Martin's College and the Royal College of Art in London. he lives and works now in NYC as an Illustrator. he illustrates the column of "The Stalker" for Print Magazine, the new hairstyles for the hairsalon Bumble and Bumble in NY and has done works for advertisements, newspapers, mags and books over the years! his work is sometimes serious and realistic, sometimes silly and cartoony, otherwise his works are inbetween, but always with his certain intellectual sense.

rejuvenate & revitalise

2008-02-01T00:00:00.000-08:00

2008-01-31T00:00:00.001-08:00

BRANDING.IDEA.LIFE.A creative hotshop that focuses on branding and ideation work."Lucideas the life behind the scenes...

from LUCIDEAS
"We love ideas and we love creating them too, but that also means we spend a lot of time in the office. It's alot of hard work seeing ideas come to light, but it's people at lucideas that makes the process fun and rewarding. So here's the first post of many, we hope, that takes you behind the scenes of a little advertising workshop that really started out as a dream to do great work here in Malaysia. And now you'll read and see what it takes - enjoy"

MAKIsquarepatch

2008-01-31T00:00:00.000-08:00

Maki Squarepatch is a socially-conscious label and choses to
work with cottage industriesthat provide sewing jobs for women
from disadvantaged families.

SHOES

2008-01-30T00:00:00.000-08:00

something that you wear on each foot, usually over socks running.jumping.walking.playing.shopping. that is part of your LIFE

香蛋。蛋蛋。

2008-01-26T00:00:00.000-08:00

2007_

2008-01-25T00:00:00.000-08:00

HOMEorangeyellowblue

long CHRISTMAS & NY break_HK

the1iLOVEmost

2008-01-22T00:00:00.000-08:00

She used to be my only enemy and never let me be free

Catching me in places that I knew I shouldn't be
Every other day I crossed the line
I didn't mean to be so bad (harmony)
I never thought you would become the friend I never had

Back then I didn't know why
why you were misunderstood (Mama)
So now I see through your eyes
All that you did was love

Mama I love you
Mama I care
Mama I love you
Mama my friend
You're my friend

Mama I love you.....
I didn't want to hear it then but
I'm not ashamed to say it now
Every little thing you said and did was right for me
I had a lot of time to think about
about the way I used to be
Never had a sense of my responsibility

but now I'm sure I know why (I know why)
why you were misunderstood
So now I see through your eyes
all I can give you is love (all I can give you is love)

message

2008-01-14T00:00:00.000-08:00

bookTWO

2008-01-13T00:00:00.000-08:00

bookONE

2008-01-10T00:00:00.000-08:00

说话BLACK

2008-01-03T00:00:00.000-08:00

UTTERRUBISH exhibition_sg 2007. december

2007-12-20T00:00:00.001-08:00

Utterubbish is proud to present, UseLess Exhibition.

A design exhibition with an incredible multi-disciplinary collection of more than 30 international and local designers / presentations.<

Spanning 2,000 sq metres on the 4th floor of the City Hall. The exhibition covers a wide range of creative disciplines, including product, furniture, fashion, graphic, environmental design and architecture. Over-arching themes includes sustainable design and eco-design, design activism, promotion of craft and how design can create value for self, society and the world for a sustainable future. Intended to inform and inspire, the collection of exhibits will inspire new ideas, discussions and collaborations.

The UseLess exhibition will be held at the City Hall.

BrunoMouron & PascalRostain-TRASH

2007-12-20T00:00:00.000-08:00

Bruno Mouron (b. 1954) worked for daily newspaper L’Aurore in his early career and later joined the Paris Match team. He is co-founder of the photo agency Sphinx with Pascal Rostain. Known also as a former Pop Art and Design collector, his collection has been exhibited at the Centre Pompidou..

Pascal Rostain (b.1958) joined Paris Match team as early as 1980 after a shooting in Tchad during the war. He is co-founder with Bruno Mouron of the photo agency, Sphinx. They have both worked for numerous and prestigious magazines such as Stern, Vanity Fair, The Sunday Times Magazine, Le Figaro, Paris Match, Oggi, El Mundo, Gente…

publicationDESIGN

2007-12-13T00:00:00.000-08:00

dunderhead

2007-12-10T00:00:00.000-08:00

what i know is "everyone *anyone.anything" is different. The more you try to be different, the more you fall into the dungeon of being the same. I just want to be myself. The more you try to stand out, the more you fall into dungeon of being the same. I'm just try to be myself. BE MYSELF

holiday_spring&summer

2007-11-26T00:00:00.000-08:00

你的美

2007-11-14T00:00:00.000-08:00

朋友是什么东西？朋友是美吗？对你来说是什么？或只是给你带来快乐
或只是个利用品，或装饰品，或出买品。或。。朋友是黑安的世界，
给你个恐惧感，给你带来不愉快的礼物。口。傻。苯。蠢。怪。怕。
伤。哭。痛。小丑。朋友的伤害一天比一天特别，创意。朋友朋友朋
友朋友朋友。脸上已不是脸上的真面，而是已带上个各中各样的面具。。。
也许面具真的很漂亮，真的很漂亮。今天的带这个，明天带
那个；后天带另个。面具可以表现不同的美貌和声音。声音？开口也
不会说错话。那，就不开口说话了，只好选择在阳光和黑暗下安静。
青色的安静，带着呼吸的声音。已经很难很难描述的感觉了。。。
再也不了解。也许会选择离开，去个颜色的地方,颜色的地方,颜色的
地方。或。

collegeASSIGNMENT_05.publication design

2007-10-16T00:00:00.000-07:00